Tuesday, May 22, 2012

The first tears

So tonight after a week of knowing the facts, I shed my first tears.  I was getting ready for bed and all of a sudden it dawned on me that I would never breast feed a baby ever again.  I probably would not be having any more babies. And while I was pretty sure I was done having kids, the fact that this surgery could affect my ability to make that choice truly saddened me.  I loved having a baby in the house.  When Taylor was a baby I would spend hours just sitting and talking to her.  We were in our own little world.  I had that with each baby.  I will forever cherish those moments. I can't imagine going through this at 28 and not having any kids.  But there are young women all over the place that face this everyday.... I hurt for these women.
My babies




1 comment:

  1. You know I love you and am with you every step of the way. You and Kevin have so many life experiences I am sure it is God's plan that you share your stories and support others in need. Your one of the strongest women I know, you will overcome this and continue on your road to happiness.